An Uncertain Future...
Jan. 28th, 2007 07:55 pmMy entire world-so to speak-may or may not have started crumbling down around me within the past number of hours.
It started only seconds after I was paid for this past week. I have to work for one more week, and starting during the furst full week of February-on the 5th, most likely-I won't be working. I'm more than positive that means I've been let go. The first emotional response I felt was denial, shock, anger and depression. Said emotions are still running through my mind right now as I type this.
I'm trying to see the good inside this-about being let go-but so far, I've seen absolutely nothing at all, dammit! I feel like screaming, but don't want to do so in front of my mother; I feel like crying, but don't feel up to revealing my emotions in that manner yet.
I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do now-I've been given a few suggestions, and do intend to take the advice to heart. I suppose that first I need to get through this emotional state of anger/depression. The quote for this evening is from a back issue of Robin.
"...It gets bad for everyone sometimes-everyone. I remember I'm not alone." -Robin, Robin #156
It started only seconds after I was paid for this past week. I have to work for one more week, and starting during the furst full week of February-on the 5th, most likely-I won't be working. I'm more than positive that means I've been let go. The first emotional response I felt was denial, shock, anger and depression. Said emotions are still running through my mind right now as I type this.
I'm trying to see the good inside this-about being let go-but so far, I've seen absolutely nothing at all, dammit! I feel like screaming, but don't want to do so in front of my mother; I feel like crying, but don't feel up to revealing my emotions in that manner yet.
I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do now-I've been given a few suggestions, and do intend to take the advice to heart. I suppose that first I need to get through this emotional state of anger/depression. The quote for this evening is from a back issue of Robin.
"...It gets bad for everyone sometimes-everyone. I remember I'm not alone." -Robin, Robin #156